Nauvoo.

Truth confirmed: I don't do well with down time. Ok, let's clarify: I do well with designated down time. But when I know I should and can be productive, I must be productive. However, there are times when I don't know HOW to be productive, or HOW to fulfill my potential in that new role or situation in my life. Then what? I act. Right? Just jump into the pool...it's never fun to just dip your toe in...just go.

How do you let go when you don't know what else to grab onto?
Interesting...I learned this lesson when I went rock climbing for the first time in Little Cottonwood Canyon. There was a very distinct moment in my first climb when I saw two paths before me: let go and fall with grace to the base of the cliff, or let go and reach higher for something I couldn't see...yet. TRUST that something would be there...What is the worst thing that could happen? There isn't anything to hold onto, and I fall with grace AND honor for having tried. Either way I would have to let go...so I did. I let go and leaped with faith up the wall...and I landed with renewed confidence as my hands found grips and my legs found stability. The rest of the cliff seemed easier in comparison to that moment. So tomorrow, am I going to let go and fall? Or let go and climb higher? Bring on the mountains.

wear goggles.

this is my new travel scheme. whenever the going gets tough, our American status betrays us, or just for a good laugh, i will pull my ski goggles down over my eyes, flash the peace sign, and plead a vow of silence. I tried it tonight...pretty effective.

I leave for Europe in 5 days.

What?

Planning this trip is hard. And I am not even doing the hard work. Thank goodness for Shanti, my stage manager of this trip, the financial advisor, and the realist.

I am the optimist, the director, and the designated dreamer. We are a good travel match.