Ok, I have fallen off of the deep end. There is no way to catch up...I can only move forward. This is actually one of the truths that was confirmed for me today. I live in the past more than I should...and in the future...I must live in the present. Learn from the past, plan for the future, end enjoy NOW! hmmm....thank you Jess for this reminder.
So, update:
I graduated from BYU.
Being "retired" (as my dad says) is overrated.
However, today, I wore my pajamas until 330 pm, and was shockingly productive.
*I played mom: got my brother up, fed, and to seminary by 715 am.
*applied for jobs online to keep me busy until i leave for nauvoo june 10
(potential jobs: hawaiian shaved ice stand, video spokesperson for an educational company, handbag model shoot, internet article writer, and wedding dj. yes. you're welcome. i am rooting for the wedding dj...)
*I sauteed shrimp and made cocktail sauce, while listening to conference talks online.
*I emailed about an audition for a voiceover. they asked for a demo. i don't have one. they sent me 2 paragraphs asking for me to record them and send them as mp3s. uh......ok. google, here i come...teach me....and boy did i learn. I learned that my 2004 mac ibook grandpa computer has an internal microphone that ROCKS! i learned how to record my voice, how to export it to itunes, and then convert it to an mp3. WOW. oh the possibilities this opens up. i am ready to play...
*I played mom again and made alec an afterschool snack/lunch.
*Then i got dressed.
*I went to visit my friend jess. after soup, we made chocolate chip cookies-turned snickerdoodle. mmm. then she invited me to join her at her rehearsal for the new musical: SHELTER. I am now in it. go figure. it opens next friday. WHOOHOOOO. I am excited to be part of it.

I loved today!
Truth confirmed: (another one): Seek and ye shall find. Heavenly Father wants this transition into the "real world" to not be traumatic, so he is sending me opportunities and helping me learn new things (i recently picked up tennis!) so that I can keep giving and growing and building the kingdom. Thank you. I am blessed.
New friend: Matt. He is the one token male in this new musical about women in a homeless shelter. He has a beautiful singing voice. We laughed and spoke in a spanish accent. magic in the making.

I am back. For good this time.